Thinking brighter

Thank you for all the wonderful comments on my previous post. It's comforting to know there are people who care. I've been feeling better the last couple of days. Hubby went the hospital with a bad sinus infection and was prescribed pain killers. I had some cramps and he gave me half of one. It put me in a really good mood ;) I know no matter what do I do or try to change, I will always have those days. Everyone has a sad day once in while. I'll just have to hope the next day brings better spirits.
Everyone have a great weekend.

I'm having a blah day. The rain and clouds don't help any. I guess I just wish I could be doing something different. Some days I'm happy as can be and delighted to have my little family and my new life. But...most days I'm wanting something else. Something, more fun, more spontaneous. I want to go shopping with the girls on a last minute decision. I want to go out to eat with the girls without worrying about hubby having the car and/or car seat. I spent too much time trying to make everyone else happy (mostly my husband), I don't concentrate on my happiness and needs. I want to go to the gym and work on that extra 12 pounds I want to lose, without finding a baby-sitter or upsetting hubby because I'm not spending every waking moment with him. And, I want to eat healthy but can't afford to buy healthy for me and junk for hubby (he won't eat anything that isn't fried, salted, or sugared). Basically, I don't want to be were I'm at in life, but I won't walk away. This is my life, I need to live it to its fullest and find a way to make it what I want.

Ideas to spice up a boring, predictable relationship

• Cook a nice meal together.
• Read a book, than watch the movie. Discuss simularities and differences.
• Go shopping and try on really nice, expensive outfits just for fun.
• Invite over another couple and play a bored game.
• Dress in your best and cruise the town.
• Take child to a play group
• Dress up child and take pictures

Please feel free to more ideas. I need them.

For some reason Ash lives to torture me. He has been weeping and throwing tantrums all afternoon. It makes me crazy. I try to just let him throw his tantrums but he insists that i pick him up. I think he hates me being on the computer, or reading, or doing dishes, or doing anything that takes attentions away from him.