Feeling on top the world

This morning started out slow. I was sleepy and dragging my feet. To make it worse, Ace is spoiled to Daddy and only naps for him. So I tried to lay Ash down for a nap and he cried his little heart out for like an hour, but as soon as daddy goes in and tells him sternly it's time to go to sleep, he doesn't make a peep. It's frustrating to me. But I know why he does it. He knows mommy is a push over and will eventually give him and let him stay up. But I'm working on that. Tomorrow I must lay him down for a nap with no daddy to rescue me. Well, anyways...I then took a nap. When I woke up I packed up Ash and we went out to my parents house. We had a great time. My sister and her boyfriend brought over their Nintendo Wii. We played that for a long while than a game of Sorry. But it's this advanced Sorry. It was really cool. I was driving home in my new car and just felt so great. I am so proud of my husband and I for buying our first vehicle together and making decent money so we have nice things. It made me smile. :)

Patience at work

I work part-time at a special needs daycare as an assistant. A majority of the children are normal. While a few suffer from mental or physical disabilities. I've only been there for a month. There are a handful of autistic children in the classroom I work. They really try your patience sometimes. A few are smart enough to know right from wrong, they just chose to test you. I've been pretty harsh on the kids, because that's what I observed from the teacher my first few days. I've started to think she is too hard on all the children at times. So, today I decided to play ms nice teacher. I calmly talked to the special needs children and asked them to do the things that i need them to do. Instead of being harsh and stern upfront. It may not have made a big difference in their actions, but it sure helped me feel better. It kept me calm and relaxed instead of stressed. I really felt the difference within myself. It made my whole day better. Even when I came home to my cranky child. I hope to keep up the good patience and deal with the special children in a more positive way.

Where I am now

Just to give you a little background...
This isn't where I saw myself 5 years ago. I was going to be something, someone important. More specifically, a teacher. But I wasn't determined enough in my young, insecure age. I couldn't leave home to go to school.
Than I met this guy. He was a little strange at first. So different than myself. I will admit, in the beginning he was a rebound from a previous relationship. However, in no time, I fell for him. His humor, his smile, the cute nicknames he gave me, the way he looked at me with love and admiration. Most importantly, his protection. He wanted to hold me, to love me, and to protect me. He wanted to have a family and a nice home. He became my everything. Before I knew it I had moved in with him, than dropped out of school. Than I got pregnant. I wasn't ready for that, financially, emotionally, physically, anyway there is, I wasn't ready. But, it was there, and I had to ready myself. Before long, we had a family. A beautiful one at that. A year later, here I am, with an incredible husband, and a silly little boy. Even if this isn't where I wanted to be at the age of 22, I am living it the only way I know how and looking to the future with hope.

Deciding to journal

I've come to the conclusion that I LOVE to write. I use to write poems all the time. As I've gotten older and settled into a steady life my writing and journaling has faded out. Writing lets me release my emotions any way I please. Recently I've discovered that I have a tendency to repress my emotions. In an anonymous journal I can release my feelings comfortably and feel more at peace within myself. I hope to have readers who understand me, who don't understand, who don't judge me, but all in all,readers who enjoy my journals.